Monday, July 21, 2014

Where have you been?


That is how I feel most days... I miss me. I miss blogging and listening to music non-stop all day. I miss reading and laying on the couch watching movies. I miss working out and hanging out on Nerd Fitness Rebellion and Makeup Talk. I miss crafting and taking photos just for the pleasure of making something from nothing. I miss family night and having a set day off each week. 

Having said all that, I LOVE my new job and all the people I work with! I love that I only have to drive 10 minutes to work, instead of 40. I love finding time in unusual places to hang out with hubs and X. I love that I don't sit on my butt all day anymore and nobody forgets I am there. 

Starting a new job is a lot like starting over completely. Schedules change, the people in your everyday life change, activity levels change, sleep routines change. I probably am NOT me anymore... not the me I was a month ago, but people are always evolving. I like to say I am getting better with time. I am a work in progress for sure!

I have also found that over the years friendships change. The people you talked to all day, every day are no longer the ones you talk to on a daily basis. Some of them you have outgrown, others it's just time to break up with in order to save your sanity and make sure you have a positive circle of influence. Some of them have outgrown you, which is ok. As I said, everyone evolves over time. Sometimes for good, sometimes not so much. Either way, you are the only one who can decide who stays in your life and who doesn't belong there anymore. Some questions to ask yourself are: what are you getting out of the friendship? And what are you giving to the friendship? Is it all you giving and them taking? If so, it's not worth it. If you are the one doing all the taking, then you need to reevaluate yourself and how you are treating your friends.

Anyway, I do miss ME, but I can't wait to see the me that I will become! :)



"Sweating Bullets"

[Mustaine]

Hello me ... Meet the real me
And my misfits way of life
A dark black past is my
Most valued possession
Hindsight is always 20-20
But looking back it's still a bit fuzzy
Speak of mutually assured destruction?
Nice story ... Tell it to Reader's Digest!!!

Feeling paranoid
True enemy or false friend?
Anxiety's attacking me, and
My air is getting thin
I'm in trouble for the things
I haven't got to yet
I'm chomping at the bit and my
Palms are getting wet, sweating bullets

Hello me ... It's me again
You can subdue, but never tame me
It gives me a migraine headache
Thinking down to your level
Yea, just keep on thinking it's my fault
And stay an inch or two outta kicking distance
Mankind has got to know
His limitations

Feeling claustrophobic
Like the walls are closing in
Blood stains on my hands and
I don't know where I've been
I'm in trouble for the things
I haven't got to yet
I'm sharpening the ax, and my
Palms are getting wet, sweating bullets

[Solo : Dave]

Well, me ... It's nice talking to myself
A credit to dementia
Some day you too will know my pain
And smile its blacktooth grin
If the war inside my head
Won't take a day off I'll be dead
My icy fingers claw your back
Here I come again

Feeling paranoid
True enemy or false friend?
Anxiety's attacking me, and
And my air is getting thin
Feeling claustrophobic
Like the walls are closing in
Blood stains on my hands and
I don't know where I've been
Once you committed me
Now you've acquitted me
Claiming validity
For your stupidity
I'm chomping at the bit
I'm sharpening the axe
Here I come again, whoa!
Sweating bullets




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